Being Too Uptight
One of my long-time dreams has been to own a cozy cabin, with a porch looking out to the mountains, where I could come out early in the morning with a cup of tea, breathe fresh mountain air, and write. Another part of the dream was to own an RV, travel with my family all over the country, and write.
This year my husband and I decided go for it and buy an RV! We practiced visualization and made plans. I even booked an RV spot for July 4th near Mount Rushmore. We went ahead and paid a lot of our credit card debt down and even put a deposit on a beautiful brand new RV, with bunk beds! We were so sure that we would get it, and there was no doubt in our minds that we would finally make our dream come true.
Well… the deal didn’t go through, we lost our RV spot, and all our hopes fell through the roof. My husband Chris was pretty bummed. He was really looking forward to our trip. I, on the other hand, decided to accept the situation and turn it around. Instead of traveling in an RV, I booked a 5 day stay in a cabin in the mountains! I was more excited about it than Chris, but I really wanted to fulfill at least one dream, or a part of it.
The cabin turned out just the right size, super cozy, surrounded by beautiful woods. Everything was perfect, except… I did not see any mountains from our porch, because trees were in the way. I was quite disappointed that I wouldn’t be as inspired to write than if I had mountains in front of me.
I was anxious and found every reason not to fully enjoy our stay. I have a tendency of being too uptight sometimes. After a couple of days, I finally came to the conclusion that instead of thinking of what was not perfect, I should start counting all the things that were good.
Only after I realized that there was no point in wasting our few days being anxious, I was able to relax. I even took naps and used the jacuzzi, burned candles and listened to beautiful music, as well as enjoyed listening to the afternoon rainstorm, with the porch door open, while relaxing in bed. Even though we couldn’t find a bike trail anywhere near (and that was another big want), we were able to enjoy a few nice hikes, made meat kebobs, sat around the fire, and got into a local town to try a slice of delicious New York style pizza.
Overall, we had an amazing time, and I’m so glad I allowed myself to let it go. Even our toddler Noah and the chocolate lab Roman got an awesome first-time mountain experience (except when we thought Roman was about to jump off the cliff😱).
Gratitude is true bliss.
Stop being so uptight and allow bliss flow into your day.